Get behind me, SANTA!

So, this Christmas..
I have a different view point. I want just Jesus. Give me Jesus.and family. and my relationships.My heart is broken for the people who don't have a place to call their home. My heart literally was crushed last night when to my dismay, one of the girls I love.. ran away from home. So much disgusting crap showing up in my life... but i still choose to follow the way of hurt and shame. I still struggle with loving God with my hands, eyes, feet, mouth. I fail every single day. I don't understand this concept of grace. I want to get it. But I don't know if I ever will. I need to let God be the God of my hands, feet, mouth, mind, eyes, voice, life. But I'm so selfish.
- I am over this idol called Santa.
- I am over everything about it.
THank God, this Christmas was different.